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About Me Member Wannabe Poet Greg the Ginger14/Male/United States

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Am I?

Am I really who I think I am? Have I changed so much that I am no longer me? Or is this just a change of perception in reality? Am I going to figure this out? Or will I stay this way? Am I sad, depressed, annoyed, happy, excited, relieved, numb, glad, high, frustrated, angry, tired, anxious, nervous? I am all of them at once. I feel the memories rushing back, of when I had real emotions. Now I just feel numb. If only i could get out of this state of emotional limbo. I need human compassion and a soul to make a connection with. I meditate for days on the meaning of real em

i like this one pretty nice i think

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Is It Worth ItIs it really worth it to live this life? Am I the one who is going to change something? Have I thought up these delusional thoughts as an effort to escape reality? I know I am never going to do anything great. I am aware of the fact that I am pretty much useless. I have come to terms with myself and my worthlessness. I am not among the users and abusers yet I am still treated like one. I am the one with the open mind, the one that wants a change, the one that deals with the others, the one that has a mind for the future. I see the fact that most people will not succeed because they were just use Is It Worth It
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TiredI am tired of everyone and everything I can't deal with the stupid things people do. I do not deal with those people any longer I am tired of the controversy and the unnecessary opinions. I don't need to hear what you think of someone I don't know. I don't need to hear what happened between you and your friend. I don't care anymore. I am tired of all the people who don't just shut the fuck up. I am tired of all the ignoramuses out there that don't think. I need a break from life. I need to get away. I need a way to let go. I love it but I can't seem to stop thinking about Tired
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Am I?Am I really who I think I am? Have I changed so much that I am no longer me? Or is this just a change of perception in reality? Am I going to figure this out? Or will I stay this way? Am I sad, depressed, annoyed, happy, excited, relieved, numb, glad, high, frustrated, angry, tired, anxious, nervous? I am all of them at once. I feel the memories rushing back, of when I had real emotions. Now I just feel numb. If only i could get out of this state of emotional limbo. I need human compassion and a soul to make a connection with. I meditate for days on the meaning of real em Am I?
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VOiceBe open and let loose. Don't be one of the people in the crowd. Let your voice stand out. Don't be the silent one in the corner. Just let your voice run free. Don't be the one to have an opinion without speaking it. If you let your voice open up, people will see you for more than just a person they will see you as an individual. You will no longer be the one who just sat there. You will be the one who was opinionated, you will be the one who spoke. They will see your confidence. They will know your name They won't see you for your name, but for your voic VOice
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GodThere is a God. I have seen him snap the necks Of children and inspect their hollow remains. Pushing past the sinews, there is nothing there. No prayers clogging the arteries, stopping the rush Of blood, a blackened jet. Their mouths had not yet learnt how to
Form 'hail mary's'. Tongues twisted at the sound.
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He is not interested in them. The purity sickens. There's a boredom in innocence that causes him To turn away. His eyes are better fixed on God
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Tue Jan 27, 2009, 9:24 AM

Mood: Frustrated
Listening to: fax machine
Reading: bank statements
Watching: quickbooks
Playing: nothin
Eating: subway
Drinking: diet pepsi

I'm at work right now, im bored out of my mind. Im pretty annoyed i cant rlly do my job. its so stressful and bothersome. it rlly is the most annoying thing ive done. im glad im getting this break at least. but im in a good mood now.

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im 14 im trying to write wat i guess you would call poetry. Its more of my philosophy as a philosopher would write it. im currently looking for feedback so feel freeto criticize. im very interested in music its one of the few things that make me happy but idk anymore. im a chronic depressive so ive got some backed up thought so writing is my release. im looking for some writers like me i like to read people who write like me because they influence my writings as i hope mine do to u. talk to me im pretty interesting AIM- mynameisgrreg

Devious Info

Current Residence: West Islip
Interests: i like philosophy and movies
Favourite movie: donnie darko or running with scissors
Favourite band or musician: decemberists but im influenced by jack inslee
Favourite genre of music: indie or some mixture of others
Favourite artist: probably dali
Favourite poet or writer: plato
Favourite style of art: film
Operating System: mac osx
MP3 player of choice: 80gb ipod
Personal Quote: Life is a journey, and at the end you just roll over and close your eyes? Why would anyone want it?
Tools of the Trade: keyboard